November 29, 2007

i went to the Dr. the other day to get my BP med renewed and ended up with a case of "white coat syndrome" the elavatred pulse and BP came back down to normal when i got home 3-4 hours later. he suggested a tiny amount of bata blocker.

he explained as a preformer i probably have a bit of excess adrenalyne wandering around in my system which usually burns off during preformances as a muscian. (i have not activly preformed in about 3 years during the time i helped take care of my mom) but i know the BP problem kicked in arounded this stressfull time as i had stopped playing at that time as well(wind instrumentelists who practice 3-4 hours a day are known to have great lung capacity just no other mussels giggle giggle). makes me kind of wonder if cding has contributed to the problem or helped in burning off some of the adrenline.

this has me soooo bumed out that i don't even feel like dressing as diana. it kind of took the "wind out of my cd sails".

i know there are worse things in the world and i guess i should be happy i have made it to 50 but i've built up to walking a mile a day or more over the last several years and have added lettuce to my diet noon and dinner( i don't like dressing so i don't use any) i don't smoke or drink. geee wiz you'd think that'd count for something....

November 19, 2007

yeaaaa i finally got time to go out as diana.

i got to wear my mauve sweater with my green plaid skirt with black leather boots along with my long black dress coat since it suddenly got colder here. (the photo above was taken at another time but is the same outfit without the boots but at leat you can see the outfit somehat as discribed) 

first i went to my dignity church meeting then onto Lowe's where i bought a new humidifier filter-pad, next onto barns and nobel to check out some transgendered books (ended up sort of reading one there since cash is short while i await local school checks) next i was off to stop and shop to get milk and finally onto walmart to return some unmentionables - undies (wrong size) since cash is short i didn't stop for dinner plus it was now getting late 10pm sigh....

so i headed for home it was a wounderful 4-5 hours out and i feel lucky to have had the chance to enjoy that amount of time even if it might seem short to some.

of course i still have been sleeping in a satin nighty (although lately i have had to use the pink flanney lined satin nighty with pink undies) it feels so good to wake up in the satin nighty along with my legs being shaved still and toenails and finger nails with pale pink polish and lately i have been sleeping in an older wig i use as a back up. (although it does slide around a bit at night but not allways) it really does feel wounderful to wake up in fem as diana.

November 8, 2007

Here it is one year to the day that my mom passed on after 3 years of lung ailments. My dad and i really miss her. we took care of her at home through out the 3 years. it was an honor and a privlage to take care of her.