Wednesday, December 31, 2008

December 31, 2008

i just want to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i have managed to get out as Diana several times this past week for errands but didn't have any time to enter it in the blog. sorry .
if i can manage getting out tomorrow I'll have managed to get out 12 times this month . yeaaa!

nothing fancy clothing wise just my green skirt, green stripe shirt with a white woman's sweater vest or white blouse , black pumps and black dress coat. usually to the food store, one of several thrift stores and delivering a few gifts to friends as Diana. i did manage in this economy to buy a few pieces of clothing including a skirt suit at the one of the local thrift stores.
even as my other self i have continued to wear a light eyeliner and light makeup which makes me feel wonderful all day. i have had to switch to a waterproof eyeliner since mableline seems to have stopped stocking the waxy eye pencils i used to use. agghhhh
but at least the new ones i don't have to sharpen or worry about poking myself in the eye LOL.

again have happy, healthy and prosperous new year!



Wednesday, December 24, 2008

December 24, 2008

first i want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and happy new year!

new jersey has been in the big freeze this last weekend . first a mix of sow and rain that froze last friday. then sat. the temp went down to 16 with 40 -50 mph winds. and althought i did brave going out on sunday i needed my black boots, a green wool skirt, warm cotton blouse and a long black dress coat.

i dislike winter. so much that i can't even enjoy colorfull fall in nj worying about the season of winter coming. Burrrrr. just the thoughts of it make me chilly. LOL

the interesting thing is that once into winter i do winter acctivities like skating. i prefer to do this outside if possable but an indoor rink will do.

then we get to the middle of bland dark january i really miss the sunlight and since i have exema (skin imune system issues) i need a little sunshine. i often think we need to move the holidays further into the mid to end of january. this would give us more time to shop.
the bright holiday lights would remain up and on till later in the winter. that way it would be much more cheerfull in january. can anyone arrange this pleaseeeee? giggle giggle.

on the other had a famialy friend has lived in hawaii for many years and gets island fevor wishing to see the fall colors and snow. (she can have my share of the icy stuff) and don't tell me about germs. so. califorina doesn't have snow and they done't have any more germs than us on the north east area.
another former nj shore friend has the best of both worlds she teaches in so calf in the winter and goes to the nj shore for the summner as believe it or not it is not as rough ocean wise in nj verses the la area.
anyway once again all have a very merry christmas and a happy new year.


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

December 17, 2008

this spoof on holiday eating came from a relitive va e mail and i thought it was cute enough to share with everyone.


1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet
table knows nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots,
leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. It's rare.. You cannot
find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it
has10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into
an eggnog-oholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me.
Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!

3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of
gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your
mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with skim milk or
whole milk. If it's skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sportscar
with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control
your eating. The whole point of going to a Christmas party is to eat other
people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?

6. Under no circumstances should you over exercise between now and New Year's.
You can do that in January (with daily trips to the gym…)when you have nothing else to
do. This is
the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table
while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at a buffet table, like
frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position
yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before
becoming the center of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of
shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple, Pumpkin, Mincemeat. Have a slice of each.
Or if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have
three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?

9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the
mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some

10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party

or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Re-read tips;

start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner. Remember this

motto to live by:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving

safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in

sideways, chocolate in one hand, body thoroughly used up, totally worn

out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

(i don't know if i fully agree with the motto giggle giggle LOL
but do enjoy each day for what it is worth)

Have a great Christmas and a happy New Year!

hugs to all

Sunday, December 14, 2008

December 14, 2008

i had sometihing interesting happen the other day. i had ordered small boxes of tea for my customers for christmas at a local food store while presenting as diana. several days later the manager called to say they were in . i had warned him my answering machine tape has "*" (male name) on it. then i realized i need to again present as diana before i went to pick it up or.... they might not hand me the carton of tea boxes i ordered. LOL
this is sort of like reverse cding giggle giggle!
it is also interesting to note that there are some people out in the public that i have only met as diana and don't know me as my other self. giggle giggle, confused? if so i think it is just a blond monment affecting everyone around me giggle giggle.
for someone who swears she is not transitioning i certianly seem to be dressing more and more (aside from sleeping as diana in a satin nightgown) and allthough about 50 days of the year may not seem like much it is up a few day from 3 years ago and it doesn't include the days i dress in fem slax, shirt and light makeup including light eyeliner and very pale libstick as my otherself.

here it is almost christmas and another month has passed.
i have gotten out several times since thanksgiving to go shopping but haven't had the time for a blog entry.

hope all are well and busy helping keep the economy going by geting out there and shopping even if only window shopping of getting a few thing s at the thrift and conseignment shops.


Wednesday, November 26, 2008

November 26,2008

 just want to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving!

if i get chance i will try to take photos of the new red strappy 3" heal shoes by impo. i bought on sale today while dressed as diana at dsw shoe store. also they were on sale 30% off! they were pretty and i couldn't resist since that brought them down from 34.99 to 24.99. yeaaaa! 
i find that impo makes a nice fitting pretty dress shoe at a reasonable price!
and i can take a 1/2 size smaller than my normal (normal himmm what is that anyway giggle giggle) womans 10-1/2 .
they make me feel sexy and cute all at the same time. giggle giggle.
this makes the 10th time this month i was able to go out dressed shopping yeaaaa! a new record for me as usually i only squeeze in about 5 times a month.

once again happy thanksgiving everyone

November 26,2008

 just want to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving!

if i get chance i will try to take photos of the new red strappy 3" heal shoes by impo. i bought on sale today while dressed as diana at dsw shoe store. also they were on sale 30% off! they were pretty and i couldn't resist since that brought them down from 34.99 to 24.99. yeaaaa! 
i find that impo makes a nice fitting pretty dress shoe at a reasonable price!
and i can take a 1/2 size smaller than my normal (normal himmm what is that anyway giggle giggle) womans 10-1/2 .
they make me feel sexy and cute all at the same time. giggle giggle.
this makes the 10th time this month i was able to go out dressed shopping yeaaaa! a new record for me as usually i only squeeze in about 5 times a month.

once again happy thanksgiving everyone

Sunday, November 23, 2008

November 23, 2008

here it is the day after i was invited and attended a charity ball as my other self.
oh my goodness how beautifull the womans red (the theme was red) gowns were. oh how again i wanted to be wearing one of them instead of my tux.
my gg friend said to bring my checkbook for the silient auction but..... even if i stood on my checkbook i wouldn't be tall enough statiswise to tie the shoelaces of most of those attending. giggle giggle
hugs to all

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Nov. 9,2008

hi to all

last night i attended a 1918 vintage ball as my other self. the womans gowns were delightfull but oh how i wished i could have been wearing one of them instead of my tux giggle giggle. the satins and delicut lace of 1918 and early 1920's were oh so beautiful along with the few who had a feather plume in their hair how i wanted one in my hair too....

anyway i don't allways get to notate it but i have been out and about shopping and lunch as diana in pretty much the same floral skirt outfit.
i stopped at lord and taylor the other day for sme of my favorite perfume (pleasurse by esty) and to say hi to one of the workers who also stlyles my "hair" in the beauty supply shop.

just a note here she instructed me in cleaning my makeup brushes which she said should be done about once a week
soapy water in the palm of the hand working the brushes in and rinseing well and after blotting dry lay out to air dry.
she also mentioned one can regain the edge to lipstick by running it accross a tissue on a flat serface.

she introduced me to several of her fellow cosmetic friends who treated me as a lady. it was so nice to be treated as "one of the girls" giggle giggle it makes one feel soooo elagent. giggle giggle ahhhhhh. as if stepping into an inner circle of friends or like stepping back in time to another erra.


Monday, November 3, 2008

November 3,2008

as promised here is the photo of the black floral lined skirt and coral shirt with the black leather blazer i wore the other day.

since there wasn't a local place to go to on halloween i didn't choose a costume to go anywhere in. if i did i had thought about cinderellea or a pretty witch which i had the outfit for.
i did go to a party as my other self as a former banker now bum giggle giggle.
hope you all had fun if you found somewhere to go in costume for halloween.

since i get to go out often dressed as diana i reallized it would be more fun to choose a womans costume to go out in on halloween so i didn' t bother to dress as diana. that is not ment to sound snobish but i now realize i woant to be more like the actual gg's so i need to act accordingly.

hugs to all

Friday, October 24, 2008

October 24,2008

First i want to say thank you to all my online friends as i just realized i reached the 10,000 view mark.
i never expected this when i first started writting. so again i must say thank you

well i've managed to get out the last 3 days as diana and go shopping.
i don't know about everyone else but when i find an outfit i like i tend to wear it to death.

i promis a photo later whin i get chance to post.

so lately with the crisp fall air here in nj i have been wearing a lined floral on black frilly lined skirt and started back to panty hose (last week it was like summer and i could still go bare legged with sandels) and with the chill i have been wearing colorfull "T" shirts along with a black leather blazer. since the floral is a dusty rose on black i chose a coral shirt on tue. then a pink shirt on wed and a yellow shirt yesterday (thur.) each day has only been about an hour or 2 but i had to get out.
and with fall i have stated doing my nails again in pail pink even as my other self which makes me feel wounderfull ahhhhh. most times i add a touch of "pleasures by esty" perfume both at night and during the day to remind me how pretty i can be even as my other self and again ahhhhhh.

i have continued to wear satin nightgowns with matching panties which feels wonderfull'y feminine to wake up in and once more .... ahhhhhhh.

my shopping trips have included tue to the thrift store called unique with lunch at the so plfd mcdonalds, wed. subway for lunch, and finally thur. to the dress store called Avenue (great for larger size shoes and a very pleasent staff as well) and 5 guys hambergers i watchung.

to me the real joy of being diana is being out in the public blending in with the gg's

hugs to all

Friday, October 3, 2008

October 3,2008

i was thinking last night as i went out for my walk how my desirses to dress are becoming more and more frequent and how i would rather be dressed in fem than in male mode most of the time.
it seems as if the more i dress the more comfortable i am in fem mode.

of course i am more fortunate than most i do get to dress and go out shopping and to dinner at least 5 - 9 days a month yeaaa! oh ahhhh pretty dresses and sparkly things giggle giggle

and i know better than to suppress anyof this as it only wells up in me an reocurs with a vengence.

it is sort of like chocolete the more one has the more one wants giggle giggle himmmm.... anyone else experiance these feelings who is a cd and not planning to transition?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

September 24, 2008 or another day at the beach!

i decided to play hooky one more time before the weather changes and go to the beach as diana
so i wore my peach T shirt and white jeans skirt and my white sandels (as you might have noticed this is my typical summer wear but even as my other self i keep to one ensamble since i have several pairs of tan shorts and white tennis shirts but that is another story). on the way to the beach and a gas staton nearby i changed into my black onepiece bathing suit with streat clothes over it (see the photo of 2 weeks ago giggle giggle)
and went on the beach.... but.... the wind was from the north east and the water was rough aggghhhhh!  so i went back to the car and ate my late lunch.
since it was out of season my next problem was to find a place to change back to street wear.
no you must understand i have spent 30 summers plus in this beach town and i know it like the back of my hand welll the beach restrooms were closed.... the restrooms near the 7000 seat auditorium were closed agggghhhh what to do at least i hadn't got in the water today so i wasn't cold and wet  anyway i ended up changing on the run. back to the original ensamble. yea
now i visited with a old friend who happens to be gay and knows of diana and my other self and finally it was time to get supper.
with the way the day was going (i found my checking account had glitched into an overdraw today as wellso by now i needed comfort food and decided against trying a newer upscale asbury park resterant and opted for tried and true clancys' for some soup (manhaten clam chouder) and a burger immmm immm good . then it was off to georgiee's in asbury a cheers type glbt bar. (i know the photo above is recycled from last year at georgies but you get the idea anyway.)
the interesting thing is i ended up talking to a gg and her partner she said how nice it was to talk makeup and types of clothing fabric with me (of course some of my favorite topics) and when i mentioned vintage cars her famialy had a 64 mustang and i could talk that topic as well.

on the other side of me i had an interracial couple who were dj's and had a job cancel and they stopped by for careoke night at georgies since they usually dj 5 nights a week .
both couples were very accepting of diana the first gg admired my blue eyes  and the other gg told me what nice legs i had  i told both they could sit near me all night giggle giggle
but at 11:45 with an hours ride home it was time to head home.
so the eveining turned out to be very nice.
if you are in nj in asbury park and want some friendly faces i recomend georgies as a place to hang out.
hugs to all

Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11, 2008

peace to all and may we never forget the horror of 9/11 on that day several years ago.
may the victums rest in peace!


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

September 10, 2008 or a day at the beach

although i have been out as diana acouple of times earlier this sept today was the first time this year i once again got to go to the beach as diana yeaaa!

i really needed this day as one of my largest school accounts has a new superintenent who is questioning all costs yuch! so i needed to clear out my brain

so once again i went to the south end of ocean grove. i actually got into the water a bit. knee high only since there was a strong rip tide but with splashes to my neck so i finally got my one piece bathing suit wet. i have extra bra prothesisas insets which are safe in salt and cloreene water.

the only problem at this time of year is that the rst rooms clossed at 7 pm and i went off the beach at 715 agghhhh with now a somewhat wet suit aggghhhh.
but..... i know this town well from 30 somers here sooooo..... up to the center of town accross from the 7000 seat 1890's auditorium there is a new large rest room so i was saved and now aboe to change into dry street clothes. ( yellow T and white jeans skirt with sandels and a hooded sweat shirt jacket ) yeeaaaa! since it was getting cool out with the sun going down!

then i was off to diner i have wanted to try 'old man Raferty's" resterant in asbury since they opened 3 years ago but have allways been in a hurry and since it was only 730pm i went there for dinner. this 2 block secton of asbury park has really improved but the builders are still working on the rest of the town.
the food was good it was there burger night. but i must admit the value is better down the street at clancy's across from the gates of ocean grove on main st (rt 71)
when i finished dinner it was only 930pm so i stopped in at club paridise a glbt bar ( i don't drink so i ordered a soda but usually tip the cost of the soda ) to say hi to billy the bar tender but he had just finished shift and was now one of patrons sitting at the bar.
i stayed about 20 mins as i wanted to go to Georgies' on the other side of asbury park near the tracks and 5th ave. this is a" cheers" type glbt bar.
i chated with a gay gg in her late 20's in the conversation she asked what my other self looked like i showed her my driver's license photo and she said " nice looking stud" LOL everyone was soooooo friendly at Georgies also wed is kareoky night so i stayed to listen (i sing very well as my other self but not well in diana voice giggle giggle) finally about 11:15 it was time to say good by to my new friends and drive the hour home.

all i all a very nice day at the shore

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

August 13,2008

Well today started out great i accomplished quite a bit of stuff and so i rewarded myself with going back to the beach. 
i changed on the way and drove the 45 miles to ocean grove i wore my yellow T shirt and white jeans skirt and sandels. i called my gg friend leving a message on her tape letting her know i was on my way but as things happen i got stuck in a traffic jam near the turnpike (they had closed 4 lanes due to a high speed chase ) great just what i wanted soooo i again called and left a message for my gg friend and let her know it would take at least another 1/2 hour or more to get there which normaly takes about an hour.
now it starts to drizzel great! as i thought if the traffic jam continues after the turnpike exit i'll turn around after the bridge and cancell but the jam cleared like it was never there yeaaa i was on my way.

ok now it is almost 2 hours later almost 7 pm but i could still sit on the beach and we could still go to dinner. now i arrived at her house only to find a note " i've moved on "  aghhhh last week it was on again after it was off again last year and today it is off again aghhhh now i call again leaving a messsage and ask for an explaination as i can't read between these lines.
so now i go to the beach anyway but no longer in my diana mood  so i changed back to my other self and go to the beach as my other self get a quick dip in the water and eat my sandwich by myself as.
at least as my other self i can visit with some of my old summer neighbors.
by now i missed the wed band concert on the boardwalk and went off to eat dinner at 10pm by myself. which at least brightened my mood. at least since this wasn't the first time this has happened over the last 2 years so i didn't fall apart but it caught me off guard.
i had a nice late afternoon anyway.
hugs to all

Sunday, August 10, 2008

August 10,2008

i couldn't be held back any longer and had to get out again. so as my other self i made him wear full make-up all day and after dinner changed on the way to get milk. since it cooled down after the rain we had i wore a pink T shirt and my white jeans skirt and peds with sandels. unfortunatly stop and shop was closed so it was onto walmart where i bought milk, some unmentionable prostic spair upper inserts, 3 golf shirts for my other self and a few other things as i checked out the girl was sullen as if i was bothering her on her line that had been empty but as i left her coworker stepped by and i overheard her comment that the 1st girl should be carefull as i could be a secreet shopper. giggle giggle Anyway i forgot the apple pie i also wanted soooo back on the road in serch of a food store open after 11pm on a sunday. agghhh
first to quick check but not even a entamans next to shop right one town away which was closed (since when is shop right not open 24 hours?) then onto path mark in the next town which was open but was out of apple pie and coconut custered pies agghhhhh. finally i bought a bit size one and a frozen one sara lee which it turns out is made with splenda agghhh (i have a miled allergy to artaficial sweetners) oh well at least it was now late enough i didn't need to change and could come home as diana. and after all that i'm not sure i want pie as my coffee is cold now. LOL

Monday, August 4, 2008

aug. 6, 2007

today i drove to the 50 miles to my favorite beach as diana and met a gg friend of mine but when i arrived i sat on the horns of a delma as i wanted to go to the beach as both selves aggghhh so since this was the first time i was going to the beach this year my otherself won out. oh well. the interesting thing is that even presenting as my other self i still felt as if i were diana! which makes it hard to get used to being able to go "topless" as my other self. giggle giggle but this allowed me to sit in my other selfs usual spot since i know so many people in that town. my gg friend said i could go as eather self she didn't mind but that she would act as if we were 2 girl friends at the beach. but that wasn't the deciding factor just that my other self one out. interesting. it wasn't till eveing when we went to diinner that i was truly my other self. but then again it was my friends birthday soooo it was just as well.


August 4,2008

i haven't been in the mood to be diana for the last month as i metioned accept at night when i turn in each evening in my teddy or nightgown with matching panties 

put today and last thur and fri i took the opertunity to do so . last thur i went to the concert in the park in mountianside nj. i arrived a bit late in time for the last number as a light drissel started. (hence why i didn't take the new mg toy with top down LOL)
i can't remember at the moment all my stops (a junior moment a friend says LOL) but i got hungry on the way back so i stopped at micky d's drive through as i picked up my meal guess what i saw ..... the painted long fingure nails of the male with a light gotee who handed me my order. of course i was dressed in my white cammasole, white jeans skirt white grass hopper sandels (very comphy) with my sears open toed thong type peds which allow you to show off your toenails giggle giggle . i commented how great his nails looked and we discussed nails before i drove off. i didn't get chance to ask more but you can bet i'll go back there.

on fri i went to somerville to check on the progress of the 1967 mg engine awaikening and spent time jacking up the car undoing the spoke wheel and freeing the rear frozen brake drum.
from there i whent to the next door resterante washed up had a late lunch and did the usual on the road change and went over to the fri night calssic car cruse. here i walked up and down the main street looking at cars wearing basicly the same combination as yesterday (but a clean camasole) 

i stopped at k mart on the way home. as you all know one never seems to get enough time out and about as our fem selves giggle giggle

today monday was a erend day after finishing my school rounds for work. so again it was change on the run actualy bring my skirt into the restrom at the sub shop in my purse and finish changeing there. next i ordered lunch and then it was off the salvation army store . found 2 blouses. next on to the food store for vegys for tonights salad with dinner and finally to sears to pick up some unmentionables giggle giggle but even with 3 -1/2 hours it isn't enough ! but it was now 830pm and tie to go home for dinner and back to my otherself oh well such as it is