ever have a day when you are all dressed to go out and the phone rings.....
hi this is ...... today is the only day i have to cordinate to drop off the antique keyboard so that the keyboard restorerer that we both sending antique keyboards to can pick them up next week. i can be there in an hour.....
lucky i don't have my makeup on yet but everything else was done hair, jewelery, outfit, lucky just clear on the nails.
now although most of my friends and neighbors and members of the historical society all know that i am transgendered but not changing and many have seen me dressed it still becomes a problem for those who don't know me. *sigh*
the worst part about it is that the rest of the week is my crunch time at work and even though i am the owner i don't wear nice pretty clothes on the job because since i repair band instruments it seems that it never fails that when i am asked to check for dents in trombone hand slides ( the most delicate part of the trombone) the student allways seems to leave spit/moisture ect in the instrument. then when i hold it up to the light to look for the dents yep you guessed it the moisture rolls out on my shoes. over the years i have learned to jump back when this happens since i have been sidetracked with the conversation with the teacher.
or there is the trumpet scene with the excess valve oil applied to a sticking valve with a dent in the valve casing that now gets on my hands or worse drips on my clothes. hence i wear the "uniform" dark slax and a white golf shirt.
when i say crunch time it is like being in a toy shop at christmas.
the purches orders at the bd of ed close out on july 1st or the money is lost. but the teachers don't get the instruments returned from the student till the 2nd to 3rd week of june. *sigh* no one wants to understand that it is physically imposable to have it both ways . if i work off just a guesstimate i loose and eat labor due to unforeseen problems with each instrument. there is no way one can pick up instruments at the school , do the work and type the invoices all in a week. the bus adminastrator wouldn't work under those conditions in fact sometimes they hold off on approvals for 3 - 6 months.
so today was supposed to be a diana day people have told me "now that your dad has passed you,'ll have more time to be diana." yea really ? ha it seems it has given me less time in fact while my dad was alive i got to dress more often even having sunday or other days dinner with him as diana. he seem to look forward to my diana days. *sigh*
and you know how hard it is to change back again after an hour of waiting for someone to show up. *sigh* as the best part of the day is ruined waiting around in male atire. *sigh*
well i have said my peace.