aug 15, 2009 or why can't we pass in fem 100% of the time? why is it there are those days you can "pull it off" in passing in fem, those days you can't and then like yesterday, there are those "in between days" when you can pass for the majority of the folks out there accept one or two.
i wore my white capri's , a pink cami, white sandals and white purse.
i went to subway for a sandwich, next home depo for some small hardware supplies ( i needed to replenish my supply of repair plates after fixing my comericial property fence which protects my privicy from their parking lot next door and a ele timer for my pool filter) and from there i went to walmart , which is the same mall as home depo to get a replacement skimmer for the pool. as i walked down the seasional isle with my best "girly gestures and walk i see a couple of hispanic woman give me "the look" .... you know "the smug look" ... which says i know what you are! but you see if i don't know the person i can just smile and ignore it which is what i did. but i had to wonder just what gives it away when know one else seems to notice?
the other interesting thing that happened is accross the womans clothing section (of course i had to check out any new fasions while i was here) i saw a gourgous short blond gg about my age in her 50's. she was absolutly stunning! and here is where the confussion of the 2 selves kicks in. the guy side of me wanted to go start up a conversation and get to know her and of course see if she was single (this is how i know i don't want to transition *giggle giggle* but, of course that was out of the question since i was in fem. aggghhh and the same moment the fem side of me stood and looked at her from afar so that i could learn from her in terms of clothing , and movements so i could be just like her. or rather wanting to actually be her. ahhhhhh so you see the confussion i am talking about.
i know other transgendered folks such as my friend kim have talked about just that confussed , mixed emotion upon seeing a gourgous gg.
at eather rate it was late 10pm and i needed to go home to a very late dinner.
this was the 6th chance i got this month to go out in fem. my goal has been 8-10 days bper month this year or 1/3 of the time dressed since am single and sleep in femine satin chemeses.
by the way the satin sheets have worked out just great. i originally thought i 'd slide right out of bed but one doesn't, accept the pillows keep trying to get away LOL.
hugs to all