Saturday, May 30, 2009

may 30,2009 - yahoo is closing 360 agh

well here it is the day that we have all heard rumors about for over a year the closing of yahoo 360.
this is a fine "kettle of fish"
for quite awhile i have wanted to back up all my blogs some how so i guess this will just push me into acting on that.

so many hugs to all i have meet on 360. let us all find a way to stay in touch. it has served a purpose in that it has helped us to grow in many ways to reach out to others who think as we do.

hugs to all

Thursday, May 28, 2009

May 28, 2009 nature attacks my goldfish pond!

about 2 weeks ago i reopened my goldfish pond.
now mind you it is not very big. aprox. 2-3 feet in diameter, 1-1/2 feet deep with a small waterfall.

we have a 4" fence around the entire yard and live in the suburbs.

anyway a week ago i had just mucked it out and retrieved the fish from a friends greenhouse pond. they had grown to the size of small "sunnys" . now i have hiding places for these fish ( a small ceramic pedestal ledge) plus several imitation waterlily's and a live water hyasent as well as a few underwater anacurius plants.
i should have known if they weren't comming up when i put some food in that smething was "spooking" them but, i fell for the ol' getting used to the surroundings excuse.

well today i went out to check on them after breakfast as usuall and the pond had been ravaged by a racoon. this critter took out the fish and threw them on the ground a few feet away as well as placing a imatation water lilly next to them. he ate 1-1/2 fish and left the rest on the ground were i found them dead! true i had let the water level go down to a foot due to splash from the waterfall and since it is 100 feet out back i usually only refill it once a week.

now i have delt with these critters before.

2 years ago when a racoon got a bit to friendly with my garbadge cans next to the house and didn't chase away to while i clanked a spoon hitting a mettlel pot from the window above i hired an extermanator for 100.00 to catch and remove the critter before he moved into my house and took over the refeg and the remote control for the tv.
he was about 40 lbs and old but smart and agile. the extermanator says they looooove sardeens
well yeppers that's true.

last year i had the extermanator back when the water lillies got tossed out of the pond. and sure enough we caught a teenager racoon and later an adult racoon.

many years ago we had some kids on the next block that jumped the fence and spear fished ruining the liner (these kids were't the brightest and i found that they had dumped the bait box at a sporting goods store and came back asking if the owner had any more fish while the police where there LOL)

but we have endured.

now you can say poor racoon but i say my gold fish have rights too!

so for now i once again have chicken wire over the pond (this spoils it for all the other anamials that come for a drink there) and a trap set.

so although summer is not officially here yet, if i am batteling the racoons ... summer has begun!

hugs to all

Friday, May 22, 2009

May 22, 2009

There are those days that no matter how accustom one is to dressing in fem and "passing" with out detection..... you just can’t seem to pull it off and today was just that sort of day.

to pass one must dress appropriate for the time of day and it depends as to whether it is a week day, during summer when school is out, or back in the spring when most people are dressed in office wear. Remember for the most part we need all the help we can get in order to blend in . What a gg can get away with is a given and no one will question that she is a gg. but anything sightly off kilter gives us away.

since it was warm today I had no choice but to choose summer wear even though the time of year still dictates that since it is a week day that one should be in pantyhose and office wear. as I said it was to warm for that since it was in the high 70's.
anyway I’ll share my days events with you.
it started out with a stop at "look twice" consignment shop to say hi to the group there. with the sudden change in outside temperature I decided to wear my white jeans skirt , yellow "T" shirt and white sandals and purse.
since it was near 7pm they were getting ready to close so I left. I was already starting to feel like an ugly gal or rather a guy in a dress day!
but does that stop me nopers!

i figure i got all dressed up i might as well grin and bear it.

I continue on to buy some wig shampoo. I stop at the first beauty supply and find they are out of the shampoo i wanted aggghhh this means getting back in the car and going around the turnaround and across the road to the beauty supply on the other side of the highway.
but before I leave the first beauty supply I notice out of the corner of my eye a former neighbors' child now grown up at the counter... agghhh so I quickly leave. the only thing is that I have been seen... rats. I am already in the car when she comes out and waves at me. now I have only one choice but to get back out of the car and explain myself . she actually tells me she recognized me from the side view so we talked while I explained. she said it didn't matter. but it didn't make me happy since I still needed to go find the shampoo. now I was really feeling like a ugly gal-guy in a dress!
but again does this stop me noopers again.

so it's onto the next beauty supply where I buy the wig shampoo. here they are not as friendly but they had what I needed . at this point I decide to change back to smaller gold looking clip on type earrings verses the screw back danglers I had been wearing. I figured they were drawing too much of the wrong attention.
next stop a cosmetics store where it went much better. here I bought some new mascara. (after having used the one year old used only once mascara at the grand opening event i attented a couple of weeks ago. almost a big mistake. note all such makeup should be replaced after 3-months. aggghhh. I also matched and bought an eyebrow pencil in maybaline since the clinique brand seems to cause my eyebrows to itch. since I have exema I cant' take the chance on being itchy scratching or I really will be an ugly woman who would be reminiscent of the alligator person in the ol' side show.

prior to that I stopped at unique thrift store. here I bought a pink spaghetti strap shirt.

the earrings had somewhat disrupted my confidence level to begin with. couple that along with my untanned, slightly hairy arms being exposed further compounded the problem. even though I have light brown arm hair that I have thinned down to fit into both selves it still unnerved me a bit.
so one can see that confidence is very important in blending in . even though I have been able to get out shopping about 8-10 times a month lately something as simple as the change of seasonal clothing can disrupt my confidence. amazing!


Friday, May 8, 2009

May 08, 2009

this evening i attended the grand opening of "look twice"'s new annex in the neighboring town of fanwood nj. they are subleasing part of a jewelry store called crown jewelers where they will sell high end costume and estate jewelery as well as new upscale designer hand bags.

they gave away scarves (from the basket behind me) to all the woman shoppers who attended the grand opening gala tonight.

i had brought some of the wonderful ruggala and cookies made by Swiss pastry shop in scotch plains (where look twice has a very upscale consignment shop.) Swiss pastry uses only real chocolate and other real ingredients (no preservatives). the owner is a master pastry chef, so everything is not only tasty but beautiful as well! this is the last of a dying breed of small town bakeries.

it was a wonderful event.


Tuesday, May 5, 2009

May 05, 2009

just a quick note i didn't know if anyone had seen the great articals on 6 personal stories in the 2nd quarter 2009 vol.8 no2 dignity usa newsletter.
they actualy dedicated the entire 11 page newsletter this time to the Transgendered. it is well presented and well done.

there are 6 great short life stories about both transitioning and non transitioning transgendered people and the roads they have traveled to get where they are today.

i am not sure if the stories are on line but you can check at