we first my dad had it on monday. then i got it mid week. even having had the flue shot it is a rouge strain! it starts with a sinis infection that will require an antibiotic and then it moves to the lower gi with the runs requiring some pepto-bismal.
the weird thing is this strain has all the flue symptoms ACCEPT a temp and doesn't come up as the flue on the nasal swap test
friends workingin in clinics say it is all over central nj. if caught in time ( to avoid dehidratin) it last 4-5 days.
GREAT just what i wanted! waaaahhh
needless to say it has really cut into my diana time and given me some guilt about the amout of time being diana takes away from being around my dad. and although he helped me pull leaves out to the curb on sunday afternoon he is 85 non the less. seeing him this much weaker with the flue has made me thing about all this.
now on the other hand as i have shared my being Diana with more and more people and the clock is allso ticking on my goal of being diana at least 6 more days this year. This would accomplish my goal of having gone out in public 3/4 of the year as diana.
isn't it amazing how when one gets sick the old insecurities creep back in? and if it can't seem to shake my confidence it hits upon my guilt feelings instead! playing upon my emotions of family longevity and mortality. Good Grief!
Diana
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Nov.28, 2010 - thanksgiving thoughts
first i want to wish you all a happy thanksgiving.
i hope everyone had a good day shared with famialy and friends with enough food available along with a roof over their heads.
in spite of the usa finical crisis we still have allot to be thankful for. esspecially ef you have a roof over your head and food in your stomach.
i read an artical yesterday of a religious colomnist who said" don't ask for more stuff untill you give thanks and reflect on what you allready have!"
my dad, my aunt and i (as dave) ended up with last min reservation changes due to the financial crisis at charlie browns restaurant chain. the one we scheduled for in raritan nj near my aunt had closed without calling us to cancel our reservations (and without giving notice to their employees i heard)
lucky our local one in my town remained open and they very graciously moved our reservations for there. so in spite of the confusion and the snow/rain we at least had a very nice dinner. and although the corperate seceratary was not very accomadating when i mentioned that there isn't even a recording when one calles the closed locations... the assistant manager shelly went out on a limb for us . wow she even adapted my aunt as here own! by the end of the day i was calling here "cousen shelly" LOL
so the lesson to be learned is... even with the financial crisis please please please treat your costumers as if they were well loved family and personal friends .
hugs
Diana
i hope everyone had a good day shared with famialy and friends with enough food available along with a roof over their heads.
in spite of the usa finical crisis we still have allot to be thankful for. esspecially ef you have a roof over your head and food in your stomach.
i read an artical yesterday of a religious colomnist who said" don't ask for more stuff untill you give thanks and reflect on what you allready have!"
my dad, my aunt and i (as dave) ended up with last min reservation changes due to the financial crisis at charlie browns restaurant chain. the one we scheduled for in raritan nj near my aunt had closed without calling us to cancel our reservations (and without giving notice to their employees i heard)
lucky our local one in my town remained open and they very graciously moved our reservations for there. so in spite of the confusion and the snow/rain we at least had a very nice dinner. and although the corperate seceratary was not very accomadating when i mentioned that there isn't even a recording when one calles the closed locations... the assistant manager shelly went out on a limb for us . wow she even adapted my aunt as here own! by the end of the day i was calling here "cousen shelly" LOL
so the lesson to be learned is... even with the financial crisis please please please treat your costumers as if they were well loved family and personal friends .
hugs
Diana
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Nov.16, 2010 - an interesting question asked by a medical assistant...
i had an interesting question from a medical assistant the other day when i went in (as my male self) for the annual follow up to some blood work.
upon seeing my nails she says "nice nails" and that they were nicer and longer than hers.
i replied "thank you that is for my other self, would you like to know more?"
i said " i am not transitioning - transgendered but don't worry i don't use illegal hormones and i am not gay" and "i am tired of hiding and i decided i won't hide it� anymore".
i offered to show her a photo and although she was impressed she asked as she was leaving the room... "Why do you dress" as if it were a choice.
and i answered " why is someone gay?"
she shrugged her shoulders indicating that she didn't know the answer and i said "exactly".
hugs
Diana
upon seeing my nails she says "nice nails" and that they were nicer and longer than hers.
i replied "thank you that is for my other self, would you like to know more?"
i said " i am not transitioning - transgendered but don't worry i don't use illegal hormones and i am not gay" and "i am tired of hiding and i decided i won't hide it� anymore".
i offered to show her a photo and although she was impressed she asked as she was leaving the room... "Why do you dress" as if it were a choice.
and i answered " why is someone gay?"
she shrugged her shoulders indicating that she didn't know the answer and i said "exactly".
hugs
Diana
Monday, November 15, 2010
No. 15, 2010 = my 35th high school reunion
this past weekend on saturday nov. 13th i attended my 35th high school reunion (as my male self dave)
i can't believe it is the 35th reunion since my class has only done reunions by 10 years until this point.
of the almost 600 in the graduation class 160 attended! with about 24 deceased!
the GG gals in the class were worried how they would look in the photos and i said "just be glad you are not on the list (deceased ) out in the entrance to the event!
ironicly one name had to be removed as it was found that that person is still alive!
the party was supposed to end at 11:30 pm but the country club allowed us to remain n the lounge area until that closeed at 2 am the remaining people including yours truly left at 2:15ish am! (now remember i don't drink since i don't like the taste of alcohol so i was just hanging out with my ol' friends) lucky me i still only live accross town about 1-1/2 miles from the event!
i was soooo wired when i got home i could get to sleep . i think i finally dozed off at about 5am
the next morning on sunday some of us were meeting for brunch at the hotel restaurant where some of the people stayed.
now mind you breakfast ended at 11am so i dragged myself out of bed arriving over there at 10:15am
when i mentioned that i only had 4 hours of sleep one of the gals mentioned that she thought she only had about 40 mins of sleep! LOL
the person that got the award for coming the farthest to return to new Jersey now resides in Scotland! and another gal came from mexico! and many others came from all over the usa including calf.and new Hampshire.
after the brunch i went home and took a "nap" for 3 hours!
i know everyone had a good time and hated to go home.
i can't believe it is the 35th reunion since my class has only done reunions by 10 years until this point.
of the almost 600 in the graduation class 160 attended! with about 24 deceased!
the GG gals in the class were worried how they would look in the photos and i said "just be glad you are not on the list (deceased ) out in the entrance to the event!
ironicly one name had to be removed as it was found that that person is still alive!
the party was supposed to end at 11:30 pm but the country club allowed us to remain n the lounge area until that closeed at 2 am the remaining people including yours truly left at 2:15ish am! (now remember i don't drink since i don't like the taste of alcohol so i was just hanging out with my ol' friends) lucky me i still only live accross town about 1-1/2 miles from the event!
i was soooo wired when i got home i could get to sleep . i think i finally dozed off at about 5am
the next morning on sunday some of us were meeting for brunch at the hotel restaurant where some of the people stayed.
now mind you breakfast ended at 11am so i dragged myself out of bed arriving over there at 10:15am
when i mentioned that i only had 4 hours of sleep one of the gals mentioned that she thought she only had about 40 mins of sleep! LOL
the person that got the award for coming the farthest to return to new Jersey now resides in Scotland! and another gal came from mexico! and many others came from all over the usa including calf.and new Hampshire.
after the brunch i went home and took a "nap" for 3 hours!
i know everyone had a good time and hated to go home.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Oct. 11, 2010 - whew another one of those close calls with a neighbor
whew another one of those close calls with a neighbor
well today was another one of "those days"!
i needed to return some make up to the Ultra beauty supply store near me in watchung square mall. elayne the manager whom i know was very good about this. as i realized that the mascara was not the one i needed since it contained rayon fibers. and as usual the company maybeline had discontinued the comb applicator in the model i liked. what else is new, anything i like, seems to allways get discontinued. no matter how many i stock up on. LOL
since i was allready accross the highway anyway with in the mall i though might as well go to home depo for the epoxy i needed. but as luck would have it i see my neighbor and his wife and son in the paint isle. agggghhhh panic. so i circle around to the next couple isles over to the adhesives. find the contact cement and as i am looking for the 2 part epoxy the older gentleman next to me strikes up a conversation and when i mentin how i use the contact cement for clarinet tenon cork repair he tells me that he played as a child and wishes he had continued about this moment out of the corner of my eye i see my neighbor ( who doesn't know about diana but has a daughter who as a child wanted to be a boy) round the courner agghhhhh panic again! i excuse my self and turn heel and continue off in the other direction. now i still have not found the 2 part epoxy i wanted yet! so i head to the return desk and pay for the contact cement. and circle back way at the other end of the isl and keep an eye posted on my neighbor. finally i give up and head out the entrance to my car but as i walk toward my car.... i realize he is parked 4 cars from me in the same row! and guess what.... he and his family have now appeared at their van. it was like something from a si-fi movie. good grief! now you have to understand i really really like this neighbor . if i were going to chose a family member t add to my family like a cousin i would choose him! but for his being a mechanic he is very sensitive and maintains a TMI policy (to much information not wanted policy) so i circle back around the lot and return into the building and look for my epoxy and after all that... they don't carry what i want!!!
as i head back to the car i see a sales rep whom i allso know from my music teacher customers and decided to introduce my diana side to . i explained that i am just plain tired of hiding my diana side and that although i am not transitioning i do consider myself transgendered. lucky for me she doesn't freak out and we chat for awhile till her manager wandered by.
from there it was off to wendys for a side salad and a few chicken chunks.
next to Kols' to touch base with a class mate who knows about diana and although she was off i eneded up wandering in the juniors area and foud a tunik blouse i really liked that had been 30.00 now on sale for 19.00. but in my opionion it wasn't priced low enough to be cute enough to by yet. you see as things go low enough on sale i have found they seem to get much cuter! anyway i ended up chatting with one of the sales ladys i know who was very welcoming and glad to see me. almost made up for the previous confusion in home depo. LOL
the last stop was to pick up some milk and the newspaper at 7-11
by now it was 9pm and i still needed to go home and cook dinner!
hugs to all
Diana
i needed to return some make up to the Ultra beauty supply store near me in watchung square mall. elayne the manager whom i know was very good about this. as i realized that the mascara was not the one i needed since it contained rayon fibers. and as usual the company maybeline had discontinued the comb applicator in the model i liked. what else is new, anything i like, seems to allways get discontinued. no matter how many i stock up on. LOL
since i was allready accross the highway anyway with in the mall i though might as well go to home depo for the epoxy i needed. but as luck would have it i see my neighbor and his wife and son in the paint isle. agggghhhh panic. so i circle around to the next couple isles over to the adhesives. find the contact cement and as i am looking for the 2 part epoxy the older gentleman next to me strikes up a conversation and when i mentin how i use the contact cement for clarinet tenon cork repair he tells me that he played as a child and wishes he had continued about this moment out of the corner of my eye i see my neighbor ( who doesn't know about diana but has a daughter who as a child wanted to be a boy) round the courner agghhhhh panic again! i excuse my self and turn heel and continue off in the other direction. now i still have not found the 2 part epoxy i wanted yet! so i head to the return desk and pay for the contact cement. and circle back way at the other end of the isl and keep an eye posted on my neighbor. finally i give up and head out the entrance to my car but as i walk toward my car.... i realize he is parked 4 cars from me in the same row! and guess what.... he and his family have now appeared at their van. it was like something from a si-fi movie. good grief! now you have to understand i really really like this neighbor . if i were going to chose a family member t add to my family like a cousin i would choose him! but for his being a mechanic he is very sensitive and maintains a TMI policy (to much information not wanted policy) so i circle back around the lot and return into the building and look for my epoxy and after all that... they don't carry what i want!!!
as i head back to the car i see a sales rep whom i allso know from my music teacher customers and decided to introduce my diana side to . i explained that i am just plain tired of hiding my diana side and that although i am not transitioning i do consider myself transgendered. lucky for me she doesn't freak out and we chat for awhile till her manager wandered by.
from there it was off to wendys for a side salad and a few chicken chunks.
next to Kols' to touch base with a class mate who knows about diana and although she was off i eneded up wandering in the juniors area and foud a tunik blouse i really liked that had been 30.00 now on sale for 19.00. but in my opionion it wasn't priced low enough to be cute enough to by yet. you see as things go low enough on sale i have found they seem to get much cuter! anyway i ended up chatting with one of the sales ladys i know who was very welcoming and glad to see me. almost made up for the previous confusion in home depo. LOL
the last stop was to pick up some milk and the newspaper at 7-11
by now it was 9pm and i still needed to go home and cook dinner!
hugs to all
Diana
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Oct.10, 2010 - lady Ellens fall fantisy fashion show
lady Ellens fall fantisy fashion show
i had such a great time at this event but since (as my other self ) i had also been the main speaker both sat and sunday at our towns big county historical society event it will take me a week to rest up.
i had stood for the most part for 5 hours both days from 12-5 pm showing off a vintage cyl record player and discussing the ragtime to jazz era and then i added standing in 3" heels on sat. night.... needless to say the balls of my feet had had it by the end of the evening.
all i can say is lady ellen and the group that put on the fashion show did a fabulous job! about 150 people attended and the staff at the hilton in raritan center edison nj
where the event was held were great. it was soooo great to actually get to meet so many of the persons i have communicated with on line over the years. there were soooo many beautiful ladies and some FtM men as well along with their families and friends too.
i had run home after the historical society event at 5 30 pm grabbed some dinner, and a 10 min nap and quickly changed into y black beaded dress with the handkerchief points and rand out the door.
i had printed out a mapquest of how to get their via the local roads, brought along my trusty ol' hagstoms map and my gps system on my phone. everything went well until i got to the last traffic light about 100 yards from the hilton driveway when my gps system went blond on me. it told me to make a left at the light. when i did this it led me ak up on the local highway aggghhhhh. so close yet soooo far and now i was trying to find my way back to the hotel. now you must understand this was a former milatary base so who know what caused the gps to go astray. when i arrived in the parking lot from the other direction the navigation system said " recalculating route" instead of "you have arrived at your destination"
now i am about a half hour late but i did catch the second half of the fashion show.
i don't have photos of the show due to a request of no photos since there were some newer gals working the show.
the second half of the show outlined a gal from childhood to her wedding day. where a FtM was the groom.
the ladies were all beautiful both in the show and in the audience. one gal told me it was her first time out in public and let me tell you she had me fooled as i thought she went out in public all the time. she was rock star skinny and her make up was flawless!
(person on left in photo of 3)
also a group of GG's had sort of "crashed" the social hour after the event. and they also wanted to be apart of the festivities.
one or 2 of my photos didn't record properly as i think i needed to change the batteries in the camera. sadly enough this was the one of me by my self.
needless to say i had a wonderful time. Lady Ellen and the fashion committee outdid themselves.
hugs to all
Diana
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Sept. 30, 2010 - the milestone! also back to the beach.
the milestone! also back to the beach.
well yesterday marked a milestone as it was the 180th day i went out this year as diana or rather it marks my going out dressed as diana 1/2 the days of the year. this is the most i have ever gone out as diana in one year! yeaaaa! it has been a squeeze some months to squeeze in aprox. 19-20 days most months.
but my goal is still to make it to 3/4 days this year so i'll keep everyone posted.
and there were still a few more "first " as diana like the pool in the next town.
anyway today i returned to the beach at the south end of ocean grove.
and although it was late in the day (almost 4 :30) there was enough daylight left to put my feet in the water. it (the water) was surprisingly warm but if i went all the way in ... then due to the late hour in the day and season i might not have a place to change if the restrooms closed up early for the day. so i only went in to my ankles.
next i ate my now very late lunch (a sandwich) and looked out over the water as the sun started to set over the land.
after changing i ended up in conversation with a GG who informed me she had been an english teacher before she retired and asked about the slight hoarseness in my voice. i replied that i was just getting over a cold ( i actually was getting over a sinus infection from the previous week). the irony was she must have really thought i was a gg since she mentioned that she was looking that evening at an apartment to rent and if i ever needed a place to stay.... i didn't have the heart to tell here i was transgendered.
Next i stopped to visit with a former neighbor friend in town. ( he has seen me on previous visits as diana) he now has a beautiful little cottage he bought right after his partner passed on.
since it was now a little after 10 pm it was off to get a late dinner at clancy's resturant/bar
i had called my new friend Elizabeth earlier to see if she and her friends were going to Georgies. she called back and said they would look for me.
by the time i arrived it was about 11:20. the 4 of us sat chatting while listening to the koeroky music as they had allready sung 2 numbers as a group. the time passed quickly and since still had an hours ride home i said my goodbys about 12:45 and headed for the parkway stopping at the rt33/rt35 McDonalds for a coffee via the drive through.
unfortunately by the time i got home the coffee had really taken hold and i couldn't sleep the rest of the night.
lucky i am self employed and could sleep in as i didn't get to sleep till 5 am LOL.
hugs
Diana
but my goal is still to make it to 3/4 days this year so i'll keep everyone posted.
and there were still a few more "first " as diana like the pool in the next town.
anyway today i returned to the beach at the south end of ocean grove.
and although it was late in the day (almost 4 :30) there was enough daylight left to put my feet in the water. it (the water) was surprisingly warm but if i went all the way in ... then due to the late hour in the day and season i might not have a place to change if the restrooms closed up early for the day. so i only went in to my ankles.
next i ate my now very late lunch (a sandwich) and looked out over the water as the sun started to set over the land.
after changing i ended up in conversation with a GG who informed me she had been an english teacher before she retired and asked about the slight hoarseness in my voice. i replied that i was just getting over a cold ( i actually was getting over a sinus infection from the previous week). the irony was she must have really thought i was a gg since she mentioned that she was looking that evening at an apartment to rent and if i ever needed a place to stay.... i didn't have the heart to tell here i was transgendered.
Next i stopped to visit with a former neighbor friend in town. ( he has seen me on previous visits as diana) he now has a beautiful little cottage he bought right after his partner passed on.
since it was now a little after 10 pm it was off to get a late dinner at clancy's resturant/bar
i had called my new friend Elizabeth earlier to see if she and her friends were going to Georgies. she called back and said they would look for me.
by the time i arrived it was about 11:20. the 4 of us sat chatting while listening to the koeroky music as they had allready sung 2 numbers as a group. the time passed quickly and since still had an hours ride home i said my goodbys about 12:45 and headed for the parkway stopping at the rt33/rt35 McDonalds for a coffee via the drive through.
unfortunately by the time i got home the coffee had really taken hold and i couldn't sleep the rest of the night.
lucky i am self employed and could sleep in as i didn't get to sleep till 5 am LOL.
hugs
Diana
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