May 14, 2011 -with the closing of yahoo blogs I am glad i switched to Blogger - blogspot

with the closing of Yahoo's  blogs and photos option i am glad i switched to Blogger! why does this sound like we heard this before?
those of you that were on yahoo 360 will remember that fiasco!


now i am very glad that my friend Kim Huddle suggested this.
i hated to have to cut and paste each entry all over again and only had the remainder of 6 months of 2010 to finish moving over.
i had originally moved it all to My Space but their addition of the apps and other newer feathers overlaid up the original just slowed it to a snails pace. I had also maintained a copy on yahoo pulse profile where the original blog was on their old yahoo 360. they allowed everyone to convert over to the newer pulse which just   wasn't the same.
but it was easier to cut and paste from the yahoo site than to work from the verrry slowed down My space site.


so here we ol' yahoo 360 er's are having a dejouvo moment!


hugs Diana 

Dec. 31, 2010 - the transgendered cousen (new found) and the year in retrospect.

first let me say i hope everyone had a good christmas. this can mean so much more than just the holiday itself as in "peace and good will to everyone" ( notice i didn't say "to their fellow man"  *giggle giggle*

next as we near the end of the year i though i had accomplished my goal of  going out in public  3/4 of the time. unfortunately i had divided using blond math and thought that was 225 days actually it should have been 270 days.

my inital goal was 1/2 the year which i did accomplish and have shared being transgendered with a lot more friends, famialy and new aquaintences than i ever expected to.

oh and just for the record i did reach the 225 days which had been a second goal ( actually i reached about 230 as of today) this included going to the pool in the next town 4-5 times this summer. they had never seen me as my male self, so dressed as diana was all they knew me as so that became the "norm".

this was a major jump from 1/3  the time in public of 148 days the previous year.

now the jucy info you've all been waiting for te he... my new found cousen.

while cleaning out my aunts house last year i found a packet dated 1993 of  a unknown child of a cousen to my dad and my aunt (dad's sister) on their  mother's side. and although he had moved being in the military i was able t get a snail mail address through another military friend. after getting an e mail back this summer i wrote to his father (my dad's first cousen) who sent me back a listing of his children and family and their lineage and yesterday as i read through the list a name change of one of the 3 male children in 2003 sprung out of the page (a male name to a female name) and "bingo" i had a genetic transgendered conection!

i couldn't wait to phone them tonight to conferm my thoughts and sure enough my dad's cousens child now a few years older than myself (53) has started to transition MtF with an official name change and a Dr. supervising!

it is such a relief to know this as now i know part of the transgendered genetic's in my famialy history! :-)

and to think if i hadn't scoured my aunts house looking for some info i knew she had on other famialy history i would have missed this connection! also if i had waited 6 months later the former military base had been at would have been fully closed so i wouldn't have known where they had moved to.

so it has been an interesting year! and i feel i have grown sooooo very much!

and with that i wish everyone a happy and healthy and peacefull (at least with in ourselves) new year!

hugs

Diana

Dec. 5, 2010 - i have the flue! grrrrr

we first my dad had it on monday. then i got it mid week. even having had the flue shot it is a rouge strain! it starts with a sinis infection that will require an antibiotic and then it moves to the lower gi with the runs requiring some pepto-bismal.
the weird thing is this strain has all the flue symptoms ACCEPT a temp and doesn't come up as the flue on the nasal swap test
friends workingin in clinics say it is all over central nj. if caught in time  ( to avoid dehidratin) it last 4-5 days.
GREAT just what i wanted! waaaahhh

needless to say it has really cut into my diana time and given me some guilt about the amout of time being diana takes away from being around my dad. and although he helped me pull leaves out to the curb on sunday afternoon he is 85 non the less.  seeing him this much weaker with the flue has made me thing about all this.

now on the other hand as i have shared my being Diana with more and more people and the clock is allso ticking on my goal   of being diana at least  6 more days this year. This would accomplish my goal of having gone out in public 3/4 of the year as diana.


isn't it amazing how when one gets sick the old insecurities creep back in? and if it can't seem to shake my confidence  it hits upon my guilt feelings instead! playing upon my emotions of family longevity and mortality. Good Grief!

Diana

Nov.28, 2010 - thanksgiving thoughts

first i want to wish you all a happy thanksgiving.

i hope everyone had a good day shared with famialy and friends with enough food available along with a roof over their heads.
in spite of the usa finical crisis we still have allot to be thankful for. esspecially ef you have a roof over your head and food in your stomach.

i read an artical yesterday of a religious colomnist who said" don't ask for more stuff untill you give thanks and reflect on what you allready have!"

my dad, my aunt and i (as dave) ended up with last min reservation changes due to the financial crisis at charlie browns restaurant chain. the one we scheduled for in raritan nj near my aunt had closed without calling us to cancel our reservations (and without giving notice to their employees i heard)
lucky our local one in my town remained open and they very graciously moved our reservations for there. so in spite of the confusion and the snow/rain we at least had a very nice dinner. and although  the corperate seceratary  was not very accomadating when i mentioned that there isn't even a recording when one calles the closed locations... the assistant manager shelly went out on a limb for us . wow she even adapted my aunt as here own! by the end of the day i was calling here "cousen shelly" LOL

so the lesson to be learned is... even with the financial crisis please please please treat your costumers as if they were well loved family and personal friends  .

hugs
Diana

Nov.16, 2010 - an interesting question asked by a medical assistant...

i had an interesting question from a medical assistant the other day when i went in (as my male self) for the annual follow up to some blood work.
upon seeing my nails she says "nice nails" and that they were nicer and longer than hers.

i replied "thank you that is for my other self, would you like to know more?"

i said " i am not transitioning - transgendered but don't worry i don't use illegal hormones and i am not gay" and "i am tired of hiding and i decided i won't hide it� anymore".

i offered to show her a photo and although she was impressed she asked as she was leaving the room... "Why do you dress" as if it were a choice.

and i answered " why is someone gay?"

she shrugged her shoulders indicating that she didn't know the answer and i said "exactly".

hugs
Diana

No. 15, 2010 = my 35th high school reunion

this past weekend on saturday nov. 13th i attended my 35th high school reunion (as my male self dave)

i can't believe it is the 35th reunion since my class has only done reunions by 10 years until this point.

of the almost 600 in the graduation class 160 attended! with about 24 deceased!

the GG gals in the class were worried how they would look in the photos and i said "just be glad you are not on the list (deceased ) out in the entrance to the event!
ironicly one name had to be removed as it was found that that person is still alive!

the party was supposed to end at 11:30 pm but the country club allowed us to remain n the lounge area until that closeed at 2 am the remaining people including yours truly left at 2:15ish am! (now remember i don't drink since i don't like the taste of alcohol so i was just hanging out with my ol' friends) lucky me i still only live accross town about 1-1/2 miles from the event!

i was soooo wired when i got home i could get to sleep . i think i finally dozed off at about 5am

the next morning on sunday some of us were meeting for brunch at the hotel restaurant where some of the people stayed.
now mind you breakfast ended at 11am so i dragged myself out of bed arriving over there at 10:15am
when i mentioned that i only had 4 hours of sleep one of the gals mentioned that she thought she only had about 40 mins of sleep! LOL

the person that got the award for coming the farthest to return to new Jersey now resides in Scotland! and another gal came from mexico! and many others came from all over the usa including calf.and new Hampshire.

after the brunch i went home and took a "nap" for 3 hours!
i know everyone had a good time and hated to go home.

Oct. 11, 2010 - whew another one of those close calls with a neighbor

whew another one of those close calls with a neighbor

well today was another one of "those days"!
i needed to return some make up to the Ultra beauty supply store near me in watchung square mall. elayne the manager whom i know was very good about this. as i realized that the mascara was not the one i needed since it contained rayon fibers. and as usual the company maybeline had discontinued the comb applicator in the model i liked. what else is new, anything i like, seems to allways get discontinued. no matter how many i stock up on. LOL

since i was allready accross the highway anyway with in the mall i though might as well go to home depo for the epoxy i needed. but as luck would have it i see my neighbor and his wife and son in the paint isle. agggghhhh panic. so i circle around to the next couple  isles over to the adhesives. find the contact cement and as i am looking for the 2 part epoxy the older gentleman next to me strikes up a conversation  and when i mentin  how i use the contact cement for clarinet tenon cork repair he tells me that he played as a child and wishes he had continued about this moment out of the corner of my eye i see my neighbor ( who doesn't know about diana but has a daughter who as a child wanted to be a boy) round the courner agghhhhh panic again! i excuse my self and turn heel and continue off in the other direction. now i still  have not found the 2 part epoxy i wanted yet! so i head to the return desk and pay for the contact cement. and circle back way at the other end of the isl and keep an eye posted on my neighbor. finally i give up and head out the entrance to my car but as i walk toward my car.... i realize he is parked 4 cars from me in the same row! and guess what.... he and his family have now appeared at their van. it was like something from a si-fi movie. good grief! now you have to understand i really really like this neighbor . if i were going to chose a family member t add to my family like a cousin i would choose him! but for his being a mechanic he is very sensitive and maintains a TMI policy (to much information not wanted policy) so i circle back around the lot and return into the building and look for my epoxy and after all that... they don't carry what i want!!!

as i head back to the car i see a sales rep whom i allso know from my music teacher customers and decided to introduce my diana side to . i explained that i am just plain tired of hiding my diana side and that although i am not transitioning i do consider myself transgendered. lucky for me she doesn't freak out and we chat for awhile till her manager wandered by.

from there it was off to wendys for a side salad and a few chicken chunks.

next to Kols' to touch base with a class mate who knows about diana and although she was off i eneded up wandering in the juniors area and foud a tunik blouse i really  liked that had been 30.00 now on sale for 19.00. but in my opionion it wasn't priced low enough to be cute enough to by yet. you see as things go low enough on sale i have found they seem to get much cuter! anyway i ended up chatting with one of the sales ladys i know who was very welcoming and glad to see me. almost made up for the previous confusion in home depo. LOL

the last stop was to pick up some milk and the newspaper at 7-11

by now it was 9pm and i still needed to go home and cook dinner!

hugs to all
Diana