back to the pool aug. 24 2011

well i know it has been awhille since i wrote anything due to a combination of things.

also i know this is last years photo but since i went by myself it is hard to get someone to take the photo. also the town the pool is in is somewhat urban so it is challenging enough going to the pool being transgendered without asking one of the attendants to take my photo! today there were only 3-4 children in the pool and neither of their mom's spoke english so please excuse the use of last years photo. as i am wearing the same bathing suit as in the photo and it is the same pool.

first is that i had been about and about about 3/4 of the time till about april first when i started building a n scale suitcase train layout 3.5" x 2'. so up till that time i was to busy out in the world to write. also about that time a hacker broke into my other-selfs e mail address lis.t so after running a new anti-viris program and knowing that nothing else had gotten effected accept that one e mail address list i am now faced with the slowed down of my system with the up dates to both the anti viris program and the usual updates to windows. agggghhh
this sort of takes the fun out of going on line.
and as far as the train layout i have put 100% of my time plus into it with quite a few all nighters which has not left me any time for being diana aggghhh. it is sort of like working on one of those jig saw puzzels that you can't resist putting a piece in every time you walk by. the only diff is that i have to create the pieces as well LOL!
it has really been a "siren call to the rocks" because i know know that at 54 ( as of last sat the 20th of aug) i almost can't do the all nighters anymore!

and that brings me back to this blog entry
soooo with the summer waning away i decided i better get over to the pool in the next town to get a swim. i had invited my dad  and had he agreed to go i would have made the sacrifice to go as my male self dave but... since he turned me down .... i was able to go as diana!
oh what fun i actually got 2 laps in doing a back stroke to keep my hair/wig ( older spare) dry before they closed down for the evening. i wore my one piece maillot, black with rainbow stripes on the upper front area, along with a lacy jacket cover-up and of course pink flip-flops.
on my way back home i stopped at wendys for a late lunch of salad and chicken nuggets and tea unsweetened (must watch the girlish figure you know giggle giggle).

it makes it sooo much easier since my neighbors know about diana since i could go out to the car fully dressed as diana going to the pool without worrying who was going to see me. but i must admit the old caution is still there in the back of my mind as i gave a look around as i entered the car. *sigh* i don't think that will ever go away. * sigh*

between this and my birthday on saturday were i went to lunch with my dad and my aunt at the new location of willie Mc Brides in bridgewater nj. this was formally crians and is very good.
then sunday my best friend came over and we went to the local diner. so it was a very nice weekend.

accept on tue i had an appointment at the allergist to see if i was allergic to shrimp and fish since i had had a hives attack about 5 hours after eating shrimp the week or 2 before. luckily the test turned out neg. which is great news since i like shrimp but.. unfortunately the test was being done as the now famous east coast earthquake hit! as i said luckily it turned out neg.

hence why there have't been any log entries in awhile.
i must add a not of thanks here to my friend Kim H. for somewhat convincing me to check out blog spot . and even though i hated cutting and paistin once again my entire blog  ... i am grateful for  moving everything over as now yahoo profiles are closing out the blog feature.  so all my notes would have been lost.
THANK YOU again Kim H!

hugs
Diana

April 17, Palm Sunday/ Easter 2011

I am posting this entry late in mid may due to the fact that i have been moving all my old my space entires over to Blogspot. i have finally finished .
this is the second time i have painfully cut and pasted each entry one at a time to a new blog host site.
previously i had moved them from yahoo to my space till they jammed their site with new applications so now once again i have moved this time here.

anyway i wanted to share my palm sunday events with everyone.

on the first and 3rd sundays of each month the Dignity GLBT catholic church group- metro chapter holds their church service/Mass  in a loaned space in a Episcopal church in the late afternoon due to the views of the hierarchy of the catholic church. we manage to get a variety of priests.

as i left for the mass my dad asked to see my outfit with my hair!
this was a major easter gift for me from both dad and the powers above as dad has only recently been introduced to diana (rather me as Diana) just before Christmas.
all he said was "WOW" what a difference the hair makes! *giggle giggle*
he loved the outfit and thought it was really pretty! especially the white shoes.

This was the first time since i had bought the shoes about 4 years ago tha ti had worn them they are white pumps. unfortunately the coating on the shoes was starting to break down and this would be the last wearing of them. all dad says is " you need to go out and buy another pair of them. * giggle giggle*

it was drizzling (like it has done for the last several weeks here in nj) so i got to also wear my pink rain coat.
i have gotten soooo many compliments on this color rain coat that i have been wearing it ever since due to the unusual ongoing drizzle

i attended the Mass and since the setting was so nice i asked if it was ok to get a photo in front of the alter (understand we only have about 7-10 attending including the priest).

at this point i must note to ignore the date on the photo my camera has decided to date all photos with this date *sigh*



after the church service /mass was done i stopped at my usual coffee/dinner spot at Manny's Texas Weiner/diner in Maplewood NJ. this is across the street from the whole foods and home depot shopping malls. they have great home made dinner specials each week like pot roast or lasgana ect. not just hot dogs!
one of the waitresses is the sister in-law of the greek owner. so you know the service is as good as the food. the owner has had this for over 30 years and has just bought the Steriling dinner in Sterling NJ so now they make their own deserts as well. ahhhh but i digress. I ordered the lasgana and had to take half of it home.
this place is only about a long block from the entrance to rt 78w







as one can see from the menu board that is the regular menu not including the specials.



this gives you a better look at the entire outfit including the white shoes that were starting to self destruct on the finish *sigh*
i loooove the look of this outfit. it had originally come with a pink matching shell blouse but i preferred
 the white embroidered one instead as it tied in with the white shoes and purse better.
when my friend Elaina of the look twice shop in Scotch Plains first suggest this outfit i hesitated due to the fact that it was a 16 petite i am a reg. but it fit so i bought it.
i have only gotten  to wear it once since i bought it as it is really a lightweight spring outfit.
it was bought about 3 years ago to wear to a monday after easter wedding at a civil ceremony in a neighboring town hall of an acquaintance of mine. unfortunately that year i had a break line go on my car on east evening and since dad didn't know of Diana in those days i could't borrow his car sooooo i didn't get to wear it. whoops i am digressing again sorry it is early in the morning when i am typing.

the next stop was to scotch wood dinner on rt 22 in scotch plains on the way home to pick up some take out pot roast for Dad as Mannys didn't have it on their specials today.

the interesting thing is that the waitresses at the Scotch wood have gotten to know me as Diana (they know Dave as well) and one allways wants to see my latest outfit!
as more places know both selves it has made it much much easier for me so that i don't have to look for those slowly disappearing phone booths to do the supper girl change. LOL
in fact for the most part i have been able to leave the house dressed as diana much of the time this whole spring . this again has made it much easier and has really saved me a lot of time as i can put on make up in about 15 min with good lighting maybe another 5min if i use mascara with out the worry of poking myself in the eye in the car.

after i got home (still dressed as diana hair and all) i of course snacked on some of the pot roast  as well while dad and i sat and discussed the days events over the dinning room table.

this was a truly great day and  even the drizzle let up for the afternoon!

hugs
Diana

moving the blog to Blogger!

well i've made it . i have moved to blogger!

Jan. 24, 2011 - another first dad gets to see me with my diana hair

well today is another first i came home from a event run by Lady ellen  which was a ballroom dance  group lesson at arther murry in green brook nj. and since i had been out as my other self dancing earlier in the afternoon to a swing band so i was recounting the days events to my dad. some how in a comment of the transgendered ballroom lesson the topic of hair came up and my dad asked what i did for hair and i said of course a wig. he said oh do you you have a wig (my dad at one time wore a custom made hair piece) i said would you like to see it? so i showed him and modeled it for him . ( of course i was still in the outfit i wore to the dance lesson which was a gray and white tunic sweater with black leggings and my new black sketchers boots which i changed to my guy ballroom shoes for the lesson) he said wow what a difference the hair makes! so he got to seem for the first time as diana! i think i can say yeaaaaay!  it is such a relief for me to be able to discuss my diana side with my dad finally. i also re-showed him some of the photos he had seen in the past but only once before several weeks ago after lady ellens fashon show.
now maybe i haven't given my dad enough credit as my dad has always been a live and let live kind of guy. but i misinterpreted his reaction several years ago when he found out by accident about my cross dressing that he was more "don't ask don't tell"

i am only sorry my mom didn't get to see me with the hair as diana or at least a photo of me as diana but at least i  did get to tell her about my being non transitioning-transgendered and i got to hear her say "so what we love you anyway".
hugs to all
Diana

May 14, 2011 -with the closing of yahoo blogs I am glad i switched to Blogger - blogspot

with the closing of Yahoo's  blogs and photos option i am glad i switched to Blogger! why does this sound like we heard this before?
those of you that were on yahoo 360 will remember that fiasco!


now i am very glad that my friend Kim Huddle suggested this.
i hated to have to cut and paste each entry all over again and only had the remainder of 6 months of 2010 to finish moving over.
i had originally moved it all to My Space but their addition of the apps and other newer feathers overlaid up the original just slowed it to a snails pace. I had also maintained a copy on yahoo pulse profile where the original blog was on their old yahoo 360. they allowed everyone to convert over to the newer pulse which just   wasn't the same.
but it was easier to cut and paste from the yahoo site than to work from the verrry slowed down My space site.


so here we ol' yahoo 360 er's are having a dejouvo moment!


hugs Diana 

Dec. 31, 2010 - the transgendered cousen (new found) and the year in retrospect.

first let me say i hope everyone had a good christmas. this can mean so much more than just the holiday itself as in "peace and good will to everyone" ( notice i didn't say "to their fellow man"  *giggle giggle*

next as we near the end of the year i though i had accomplished my goal of  going out in public  3/4 of the time. unfortunately i had divided using blond math and thought that was 225 days actually it should have been 270 days.

my inital goal was 1/2 the year which i did accomplish and have shared being transgendered with a lot more friends, famialy and new aquaintences than i ever expected to.

oh and just for the record i did reach the 225 days which had been a second goal ( actually i reached about 230 as of today) this included going to the pool in the next town 4-5 times this summer. they had never seen me as my male self, so dressed as diana was all they knew me as so that became the "norm".

this was a major jump from 1/3  the time in public of 148 days the previous year.

now the jucy info you've all been waiting for te he... my new found cousen.

while cleaning out my aunts house last year i found a packet dated 1993 of  a unknown child of a cousen to my dad and my aunt (dad's sister) on their  mother's side. and although he had moved being in the military i was able t get a snail mail address through another military friend. after getting an e mail back this summer i wrote to his father (my dad's first cousen) who sent me back a listing of his children and family and their lineage and yesterday as i read through the list a name change of one of the 3 male children in 2003 sprung out of the page (a male name to a female name) and "bingo" i had a genetic transgendered conection!

i couldn't wait to phone them tonight to conferm my thoughts and sure enough my dad's cousens child now a few years older than myself (53) has started to transition MtF with an official name change and a Dr. supervising!

it is such a relief to know this as now i know part of the transgendered genetic's in my famialy history! :-)

and to think if i hadn't scoured my aunts house looking for some info i knew she had on other famialy history i would have missed this connection! also if i had waited 6 months later the former military base had been at would have been fully closed so i wouldn't have known where they had moved to.

so it has been an interesting year! and i feel i have grown sooooo very much!

and with that i wish everyone a happy and healthy and peacefull (at least with in ourselves) new year!

hugs

Diana

Dec. 5, 2010 - i have the flue! grrrrr

we first my dad had it on monday. then i got it mid week. even having had the flue shot it is a rouge strain! it starts with a sinis infection that will require an antibiotic and then it moves to the lower gi with the runs requiring some pepto-bismal.
the weird thing is this strain has all the flue symptoms ACCEPT a temp and doesn't come up as the flue on the nasal swap test
friends workingin in clinics say it is all over central nj. if caught in time  ( to avoid dehidratin) it last 4-5 days.
GREAT just what i wanted! waaaahhh

needless to say it has really cut into my diana time and given me some guilt about the amout of time being diana takes away from being around my dad. and although he helped me pull leaves out to the curb on sunday afternoon he is 85 non the less.  seeing him this much weaker with the flue has made me thing about all this.

now on the other hand as i have shared my being Diana with more and more people and the clock is allso ticking on my goal   of being diana at least  6 more days this year. This would accomplish my goal of having gone out in public 3/4 of the year as diana.


isn't it amazing how when one gets sick the old insecurities creep back in? and if it can't seem to shake my confidence  it hits upon my guilt feelings instead! playing upon my emotions of family longevity and mortality. Good Grief!

Diana